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u have me alr. and at least i can tell u this love for u will never change
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compared to that kind of love which will fade
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and ppl get bored
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but this, will not change
i’m holding on to your words. every word you said before. I’m not going to lose you this time.
Im not walking away. Im not going to lose you ever.
please dun let me lose you. Please stay. Stay close to me. close.
I dun want to be left by just memories.
I’m going to put my feeling in colourful rainbow box and lock it seal it tightly and put it away in the deepest corner of my heart. Dun left me
out of your life. Dun forget me, when you are happy. Dun forget me, just because you got her. Cause i need you too. I hate this shit.
you dunno how much i hate myself now. you have no idea.
shit happen, suck it up. You said that to me. It felt like a knife straight to my heart, So here is for you, suck it up.
I’m scared actually. I feel like im losing everyone. Even my parents. Like im shutting everyone out. And i know i keep alot of thing to myself, that i dun really know who is really there for me. i know i got friends. i know what i got. but sometimes, i am really tired of being alone. i am. tired of walking alone. I use to have black gang, something i can call mine. Then they fall apart. I use to have four pillars, they kinda fall apart too. i’m tired of feeling like this. why am i feeling like this. i say, it’s okay to live alone. to be alone. Actually no. it’s not okay. i’m not okay. and for the last few days i just have been living. living. trying to get through life. i hate being invisible. i hate being me sometimes. i just dun want to be anyone. i just want to sit down there, lie down and back off and watch everything fade away. and be and feel the hurt. but i know i am scare, really am. but i guess everyone wants you to be strong. after so long, i just learn to push it aside, and laugh it out. Laugh everything out. that what i am good at. i’m bad at everything. studies, family, friends, love. I’m bad at everything. And sometimes, i become the bad person. If i leave one day, will anyone would actually miss me? or notice?
